Last night, Monday July 30th at 9:15pm the precious matriarch of our family, furkid Stinker passed away. She was 12 years old. Marlin and I are totally devastated as you can imagine. It came as a complete shock. Stinker has been ill for the past 3 + months but had been doing ok and wasn't in pain. The past week though, I knew her time was growing closer. yet when I went to go to bed last night, I found her on the floor of my bedroom, paralyzed and in so much pain. I called out for Marlin , and I tried ever so gently to scoop her up in a towel and Marlin sat in the rocker and held her, and she started having little seizures. I called our " Emergency " Vet, Dr. Kim and she met us an hour later at her clinic and assisted Stinker in crossing over. We wanted to relieve her of her pain and we didnt know if her passage would be quick or go through the night, and we only wanted to let her pass peacefully..
Some months back Stinker started losing weight, and I took into the vet Dr. Ken and he ran multiple tests, and all we could determine from all of that was that her white count was out of control, so she had some kind of infection going on in her body, yet all her organs were working and she didnt have any of the normal feline diseases. The doc thought she might have tumors and I felt that was the case. In any case, Stinker and I made a few trips to the vet for her to get fluids and antibiotic shots and then she was doing pretty well. This past week though, I could tell she was beginning the downward path and I was wondering when should I call and make that fatefull call to the vet. She was still eating well and her innards were working and she was mobile, so we were holding out, and I would talk to Stinker and she would give me this look as though, no its not time..not yet... not yet. Yesterday though, I had this feeling in my heart....... then I realized she wanted to pass at home be in her daddys arms .
So, now, we and the furkids are all mourning. Hannah and I didnt sleep all night. Poor Hannah was devastated. She was in the bedroom with her sissy ( not biological, but still sisters, ya know?) as all this took place and last night during the long hours after, she was missing her sister in bed, as I was too, as Stinker always snuggled up into my belly area to sleep or she would come up higher and snuggle between Hannah and I. Hannah always lays on a pillow beside me. I couldnt sleep without my sweet girl curled up with me. Hannah laid in bed this morning and wouldnt get up. I finially coaxed her out of bed and we tried to do our morning rituals as best we could. I held her up to the kitchen door window as usually daddy does in the morning and her and I talked..she did this deep throated troubled talking back to me. I just checked on Hannah and she was hiding under a chair on the 3 season porch, poor little one. I convinced her to come out. She's always been the super sensitive one, so the coming days will be very intense with helping her through her loss.
I had gotten the 3 season porch cleaned up all because of Stinker. I wanted what ever time she had left enjoying the scenery outside since she couldnt go outside, and she did indeed enjoy the last weeks and her last day sitting looking at the beauty outside..
STINKER
so to you My preciouslittle Stinker, who would wake me up during the middle of the night to give me kitty kisses on the face just because and who was the vigilent and kind "big sissy" ,who had a million different expressions, we shall miss you sweet girl...rest in peace. You are with you big sissy Baby Girl now..enjoy the beauty that is..and one day soon, in the blink of an eye, we shall be with you..
Love Mommy and Daddy..
here's a pic of Stinker and Hannah